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Hey there,
Been a long while since I last posted on here.
A lot has happened... I am in my last term of first year at Central School Of Speech and Drama which is scary as it's gone SO fast!
I could talk about everything that happened but I won't, because it would bore you and take a long time and energy. Let's just sum it up by saying there have been a lot of ups and downs.
Of course, it has all been very fun and exciting and I have me lots of new, amazing people but moving out of home and starting something like this in big ol' London does come without it's downfalls.
I miss home often, expecially in the evenings.
One thing about moving away from somewhere you are so used to being is that you are suddenly without all the things you took for granted, for example, London is MASSIVE and, unlike Brighton, I don't really know where things are or where are the best places to go so I don't feel 100% comfortable.
Also, you find yourself cut off from all the friends you have back at home. They are all off doing their own thing and you are surrounded by relatively new faces, none of whom you have known for more than a few months. This is really hard for me, as I find it a bit difficult to quickly get past the small talk and slightly awkward phase of friendships. This means I won't feel like I can really open up to someone until I have known them for quite a while, I won't call them, I won't invite them round.. I am basically an uncomfortable mess. I am also pretty paranoid that everyone else is making better friends that I am, but most of the time I realise that that is probably ridiculous.
Of course there has been something that has really knocked my confidence. First term was pretty much taken up by lectures and then spending time with a certain group of people who I really liked and had a lot of fun with and so I didn't really socialise with anyone else. When that fell through (for reasons I won't go into) that was the friendship group I had been working on broken and I had to start from scratch.
That incident has really messed up my plans for a care-free, fun-filled experience of university, which fricking sucks.I find myself thinking about it and getting myself worked up. Even though I know I am better off now, it still seems to get to me which makes me angry at myself for being so stupid which makes me even more worked up until I just have to turn my music up really loud and dance around my room.
Sorry for this blog being so twatty and soppy, but I needed to get that off my chest as I feel I need to write it down to see how ridiculous I am being.
Next blog will be better I promise.
In other news, my dad is cycling 100km... yes, you heard, 100km! around London with my uncle Jann and their friend to rasie money for a charity that is based around The Encephalitis Society, in memory of my Mum. If you would like to donate, that would be really great. Here is the link : http://uk.virginmoneygiving.com/fundraiser-web/fundraiser/showFundraiserProfilePage.action?userUrl=naef&isTeam=true

Cheers
xxxx

ch-ch-ch-ch-changes.

Wo-wa-we-wahhh. It has been a while since I decided to let y'all know whats going on in my life.
Well, as you're asking...quite a lot actually.
I returned from travelling (which you can read all about here you lucky devil!) and everything started happening pretty fast. I went to France with the fam-a-lam, got home and it has been all go-go-go since then.

As I type this, I can see out of the corner of my eye, boxes and boxes of my belongings ready to be transported to their (and my) new home in LANDAN CITY! Yes, that's right boys and girls...Emma is invading the 'Big Smoke'.

I got my grades and have been accepted into Central School Of Speech and Drama. That was the easy bit! I have, since then, been house hunting and found the perfect flat with some lovely flatmates. It is 2 minutes walk from the campus, has views of London, very close to a tube station, is situated in the wicked location of Camden Town and my bedroom is amazing!

All this comes at a price though, but I WILL make it work. This means I will have to finally get a job, for people who know me this seems like an alien notion, but trust me, it's actually going to happen! Needs must!

I move this Saturday which is very surreal. My sister keeps making strange noises like "n'awwwww" or "ooohhhhhh" when she sees me and puts on the little cute face that she does so well. The biggest one of these episodes she's had was when she came home to discover all my boxes in the lounge. I was in the kitchen and all I heard was "ooooohhhhhhh, all your stuff, n'awwwwwwwwww, you're really leaving, noooooooo" then she came running into the kitchen and grabbed me. Odd child, must be why her real parents abandoned her at the ophanage LOLJOKES. I love her.

My dad will just look and smile at me and random times, like when I am making tea or curled up on the sofa. I will miss home but I am so excited about moving out and starting something new.

Central here I come.

Onwards and upwards(?)

[WARNING; if you hate blogs that are just people blabbing on about feelings then you may want to scroll down to after I say GOD THIS IS A SOPPY BLOG. Sorry, I just need to get this off my chest. Anyway, no-one asked you to read this so SCREW YOU MAN, DON'T JUDGE ME!... love you]

I've been in such a strange mood recently.
As you know I am usually a bag of laughs and generally a brilliant person to be around (cough) but there's something about leaving college and home soon that is really scaring me.
I am a bit of a daddy's girl and so the thought of not coming home to my family everyday is pretty bizzare to imagine. My dad taught me how to use the washing machine the other day :S God knows how I will survive when I don't have Bonnie to fix the TV when there's a problem. Uh oh! Of course it's not just their technical skills I will miss but that will be the main thing. MEGALOL JOKEZ!

I have been thinking about how little I'm gonna see of my friends over the summer too. It's weird, I've never felt like this. I spose it's because I always knew I would come back to trusty ol' Burgess Hill and all my friends would still be close-by(ish). I feel like I've finally got my friend group down to the people who I want to know for the rest of my life and so the idea of leaving that security is a bit scary. I also feel like I'm only just getting really close with some people and I'm not going to have enough time with them, which sucks because I love them to pieces.

GOD THIS IS A SOPPY BLOG.

(Before I start, hello to all the people who scrolled down straight away. Welcome)
In lighter news, I am off to Glastonbury on friday after my A-level english exam. I AM SOO EXCITED.

My dad is already there as we speak which is weird. I am so used to being there before everyone else and so getting there when it's already started (with the muggles) will be an alien experience. I have written a list of the acts I want to see;

FRIDAY
Fleet Foxes
Mumford&Sons
Cee Lo Green

SATURDAY
Jessie J
Fools Gold
Aloe Blac
Newton Faulkner
Coldplay (allow me this guilty pleasure)

SUNDAY
Laura Marling
Paul Simon
Plan B
Pendulum
Beyonce (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)

As you can probably tell I am most excited about Beyonce. I WILL be down the very front for her. I WILL!
I shall be shaking my booty for the whole glorious 1 & 1/2 hours she is on stage (so look out for me on the tele)

After that I have 2 days to respawn and prepare for travelling. During this time I will be unpacking Glastonbury, repacking my backpack and having a little gathering with my freunden which will be very jolly indeed.
I have already started my preparation for travelling with my bestest buddy Hannah. Today I felt very grown-up going into my bank to pay in all the moneys I've been saving up in the box in my room. I filled in the pay-in slip and stated I had £678 to give. The women behind the desk obviously expected me to pull it all out in notes but no. I had the majority in notes but I then proceeded to spill out what seemed like millions of coins. Her face dropped and she began to count every single one of them. They had to open another window because, as you can imagine, a hefty queue began to form behind me :S

Thanks for reading, thats a weight off my chest :)
Lots of loving coming your way from me
xxxx

The End/Beginning

As I'm sure you've noticed (due to the huge hole in your life) I haven't posted a blog in quite a while. Much unlike me, I have actually been busy and have had important things to achieve in life! Quite a shock to the system as you can imagine. But events have slowed down for a couple of precious weeks and so I thought I should document all the crazy goings-on before they all mould into one blur of utter fun,confusion and madness.

I am currently smack bang in the middle of my last week at college, a thought that both titifies and terrifies me. Today was the very last performing arts scheduled lesson. We all (or very nearly all) came into college to get our final grades for the course. I am so happy that I got the grade that I need for my uni (get to that later) and sooo glad that all the HARD work payed off. My teacher Jo told me my grade which I am glad about because I've always got on well with her and I think we are quite simular. She was extremely nice to me and gave me lots of compliments which made me so happy to hear. It's lovely to hear good things because during the process you can lag a bit and never really know what an outside view of what you're doing is and so getting this feedback has really boosted my confidence for the future. She said " Emma is a force to be reckoned with" and that I am "due for big things". It all makes me more excited for what I can do and more eager to prove them right. Getting my grade has made me realise just how brilliant my beautiful friends in Perfroming Arts are. We have all supported eachother throughout which has let us all achieve so much. SO yeah, we're great! We had a big farewell lesson last week. Joe burns told some jokes (some of them on and beyond the line), me and Hannah gave out special awards to everyone (including most likely to own a brothel and most likely to become and green grocer), Joe and Rosie sang just like Susan Boyle and Geraldine, we saw all the photos from our shows and I made a 20 minute long film for everyone including photos and very very funny videos then we went down t'pub. It was a perfect way to end the experience :D

Our last Performing Arts unit was Shakespeare retold. My group chose to tackle Measure For Measure. Our performances went better than we could have hoped for and the way people who came to see it talked about it afterwards made me so proud. I loved working with the group I had and  think we worked perfectly together. We had such a range of personalities and skills and we really focused on the job as well has having fun, which is what it's all about. I would love to work with my group again so if any of you are reading... M4M reunion and re-showing in 10 years yeah?


I have finished 2 out of 3 of my college subjects now and only have my English exam in June to focus on now, so naturally my mind is on summer 2011 like crazy! There is just so much to look forward to!
On the day of my English exam I am getting straight on a train from college to my 12th(ish) Glastonbury Festival. This year promised to be a big one! BEYONCE on the main stage. That's all I need to know! Then after that I come home for a couple of days, have a much needed shower and then jet off to Amsterdam to start my trip around Europe with Hannah :D
I am soo excited for travelling it is unreal. It seems to strange to think that me and Hannah, are considered to be adult enough to travel alone around bizzare new lands without question. We have booked our Interail ticket (the ticket that lets us get on any train to travel to anywhere), our outward plane journey and our insurance. Our plan so far is to go to Amsterdam and stay with Hannah's family friend for a couple of days then move down to Berlin. After Berlin we may take the LONG journey to Budapest which is supposed to be absolutely stunning and interesting. Then by the 15th of July we should be in Venice for a free 5 day long party organised by Interail (which will include a toga party night.. TOGA TOGA) After Venice we will stay in Italy and hopefully see Rome, Florence and Piza and then end by the sea (hopefully) and fly back when we run out of money. It is going to be life-changing. At times we will probably want to disembowl eachother but I simply can't wait! I need to practice packing and walking with a rucksack though because my last experience (Duke of Edinburugh) wasn't the most enjoyable experience.
ALAS, my summer still isn't finished. A week(ish) after I get back from travelling it is my Grandparent's diamond anniversary and then we are going to France for our family holiday, which I always greatly enjoy.
The thing is, after all this jet-setting and globe-trotting I will still not have a tan.


Good God, I shouldn't have left it so long to blog. I have a lot to say. Sorry.


UNIVERSITY. dun dun dahhhhhh. This word has sent shivers down my spine. I can honestly say that choosing your first choice of university is one of the cruelest and most difficult choices to make. After all my auditions I got offered a place at Chitchester, Exeter and Central. I very swiftly cut that down to the last 2 but cutting it down to 1 seemed almost impossible. Exeter is a university. It has a uni campus, a uni lifestyle, a uni way of learning, it's in Exeter, it has been given 1st place in the student overall satisfaction for a drama course out of all of the Universities in the country. It is very very good. Central is a drama school. It has a cosy campus (no halls), a drama school lifestyle, a drama school way of learning, it's in London, it is a very highly acclaimed course internationally in one of the most desired drama schools in the world. It also is very very good. You can see my dilemma. Both places are just so different that it is hard to compare them. The date of the 6th of May loomed over me whispering "you need to make you decision otherwise all your choices will be automatically declined". My phone would flash its red light alerting me of a recieved email reminding me again that my decision MUST BE MADE. I couldn't escape the pressure. It needed to be done. I knew I needed to man-up and face the music.  My decision, in the end, came down to prospects for the future. I knew that getting contacts, learning transferable skills, and gaining experience of professional theatre was important and so I made up my mind. I stormed to the computer and logged onto UCAS. My finger wavered over the mousepad and made the giant leap to clicking 'Choices'. And...... I did it, by George I did it.  Declining Exeter was extremely hard and upsetting to do but now that it's done I am completely focused of going to Central and the excitment is building. It's gonna be a good'un!

So that all I can think of at the moment but I'm sure I have bored you enough.
Thanks for reading
Love xxxxx

ps. The novelty of being 18 still hasn't worn off and it's AWESOME.

Long Time No Speak

I have been unable to write a blog for quite a while now but I was just building up many things so that his blog can be filled to the brim with emmaness.

It is my 18th birthday the day after tomorrow (eekkk). Yes, it's on April fools day, but weirder still is that I share my birthday with;
-My Dad
-My Uncle
-My Step Cousin
-My Step Cousins Step Mum
-The Boy Who Lives Down My Road
-My Friend
I was thinking about how much of a coincidence this is the other day. It seems ridiculous so I had the thought that perhaps it was all just a April Fools joke. Can you imagine on my 18th birthday if my dad turned round and said
"APRIL FOOLS. Your birthday is really on the 17th of Ocotober"
I think my whole life would just collapse. I would have been living a lie. It was a horrible thought.
ANYWAY
I have planned a party in a bar in Brighton and the theme is moustaches WHAT ELSE?! I am soo excited about my birthday and being 18. I will be thoroughly suprised if I do not wake up on friday with a new adult outlook on life (eg. no more tickling, no more stupid accents, a sudden urge to get a career, and generally opposite to how I am now) But I preparing myself for the unlikely situation if this does not happen.

Bit of the ol' Dali showing us how a moustache is done

In other news I am in the process of moving forward to university DUN DUN DAHH.
I have got offers from 3 of the 5 that I applied to and in May I have to slim that down to my first and second choice. I am thinking about choosing Exeter and Central but I don't know what order :S It's all so confusing but I am thankful that I even have the option of choosing out of 3.
UEA rejected me which stung a bit because I LOVED their campus and could completely see myself living and studying there. But, L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N. as they say and both Exeter and Central have brilliant reputations and I really liked them when I visited them.


At college I am in the middle of devising a Shakespeare piece (Measure For Measure) which I think is going REALLY WELL. I am so proud of my group because we all have ideas and (most of the time) can work productively and successfully together to produce great work. I am so excited to get it all together, especially the final scene which we are going to go all out on (but you have to come and see it to know what I'm talking about)


My Inter-rail ticket came through the post a few days ago and it has got me all excited for my summer. I have Glastonbury STRAIGHT after my final exam (and I mean straight after, I get on a train straight from college) Then on the 4th of july I can start using my inter-rail ticket which is valid until the 25th of july. Then in August I go to France with la famille, which is always lovely. Then the rest of the time until I start Uni (eekk) is PARTAY time!


As exams leer over me, like annoying parent peering over my shoulder to see if I'm doing my work right, I am realising how close the end of college is. I can truely say that the last 2 years have been the best of my life. The friends I've made are friends for life and I am going to miss them so much when I leave :(  I also think I've changed while I've been in college as well. Going to college had given me a chance to meet lots of different people and I think (although I can act like a child) I've matured in the way that I think. It's taught me that you don't need to work hard to be 'cool'. Your real friends should love you no matter what you do. (CHEESEE but it's true) I know a lot of people who try to hard to be accepted, it's a waste of time.


Thanks for reading
LOVE YOU
xxx

'ello there! Oh haiiiiiii!

Just thought I'd use the time I should probably be doing CW with to write some shizz about my incredibly ordinary life. (ok maybe a little bit out of the ordinary then!)

Firstly, I was elated to see the sexy beast that is Rihanna wearing MY jacket in her What's My Name video!
Just want to make sure that people are aware that I had this jacket first and she OBVIOUSLY copied me after seeing how great I looked in it!

If Rihanna does read this (which I'm sure she will) Yes, I am starting celebrity beef with you Rihanna! Bring it on!
Actually on second thoughts please don't bring it on. You will eat me alive!
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This week has been my half term but instead of coming away from it feeling rested and prepared for the return of college I feel knackered and 1 week closer to my impending doom (exams). It has been a busy week for me.
It started off relaxed with me just sitting around the house. For some reason when you have tons of time on your hands you just think "Hey, I won't use this time effectively to get my work or other important things done. Nahhh I'll just sit here and watch Scrubs and surf Facebook alllll day!!"

Tuesday
I went to Liam's house with Andy and poorly Hannah. I was very humbled to be the first passenger in Andy's green beauty of a car! He needs to decide what he should name his car. Here are some possibilites:
*Patrick
*Green Machine
*Pea
*Luigi
*The Hulk
Please comment with any other ideas :)

Wednesday
was my Central audition. I wasn't expecting to like it as much as I did. The building was really nice. It was like one of those posh factory conversions with brick walls, shiny metal and wood floors. Walking round the school is like being in Fame. There are just things happening in every nook and cranny. We walked past someone inside a huge puppet man and the other students just walked past it without batting an eyelid. I was expecting someone to jump up onto a table and for the entire school to begin a choreographed routine. There were lights rigged in every part of the school and so this choreography could have been completely plausable.

Thursday
I went to Brighton with Andy and Liam. I showed Liam the Krispy Kreme that has recently opened and he reacted by saying (in front of some 13 year old boys) "I'm gonna put my dick in a doughnut!"
LUCKILY in this case Liam was all talk and no action THANK GOD! I brought 2 pairs of shoes and a ring and Andy found some jeans. YAY SHOPPING! We ended the day on the pier shooting zombies and riding motorbikes in the arcade. Lovely.

Friday
I had my Chichester audition. Meh. I already kinda knew that I wasn't too impressed by chichester's campus and general atmosphere and this audition just managed to strengthen those feelings. I did meet some lovely people though!
In the evening I went to Lia's PA paaartayyy! There were no ambulance's involved this time but we did have a hilarious game of "what the fuck" and a lot of dancing to the music channels. PLUS we got to see Lia's incredible house (think of a modest footballer's home) I was determined to stay up until 5am to Liam's annoyance but he ended up keeping me up until way past then with his crazy talk about blegs and bacon. That is all.

Saturday
was meant to be my day of work. In the end I got home slept until 3pm, wrote some log book and added a minute to my CW video. So it's fair to say I was partly successful.

Sunday (today) 
I am going to visit my grandad, my other grandparents and my aunt and cousins which is a lovely way to end the half term. All you can eat chinese with the fam-a-lam. WOOP!

So there's my week!
Thanks
x

Take 2

Hello!
This is my second chance at writing this blog as my first attempt got deleted by my stooopid laptop.
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I just want to express my love and respect for the amazingly talented Adele who has been on repeat on my spotify for quite a while now. I listened to her radio 1 Live Lounge and her performance at The Brits and each time it gave me goosebumps. I have never been broken hearted (but when I am it will make a gripping blog) but the lyrics still seem to speak to me. To be honest even if she was singing in some alien language the music speaks for itself. So, yeah, well done Adele.

What a beaut.

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As anyone who knows me well enough will tell you I am on the constant search for cool hair so as you can imagine when my dad told me I was in for a hair-cut I got excited about the possibilities. I'm sure I'm not the only one who gets like this before a hair-cut. I quickly got on to the internet to search for inspiration and found this picture;

In my excitable haze I had an image of myself with my new hair. I can't be the only one who thinks that thier new hair will dramatically change how they look and even how they act. Now, I don't know why, but for some reason I truely believed;

1) I had enough hair for this style
2) My full block fringe could somehow just disappear
3) By showing this picture to a hair dresser they could make me look exactly like this celeb (whoever she is)

I was wrong.
Our hair-dresser arrived at our house. I showed the photo to her as planned. She nodded and seemed happy she could provide me with this exact style. As she snipped and brushed I sat their impatiently not being able to see the end result. She said she was finished and I rushed to a mirror. Oh.
It was NOTHING like the photo. In fact, if anything, she'd taken away some of the length that I'd been working so hard on!
And surprise suprise... no-one noticed.
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I had a lovely time on valentines day with Liam, Andy and Amy. We celebrated anti-valentines day or Pointless Excessive Commercialism Day.
We watched Scary Movie 2 and Paranormal Activity 2 which was horrible but made slightly more bare-able by the fact all four of us crammed onto my sofa along with pillows to cover our eyes and ice-cream.
Liam and Andy had a cookie fight in my kitchen too (They should really just get a room!) and managed to leave crums ALL over the house! Thanks guys. oh, how can I stay mad at you!
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The next day I was in 'one of those moods' where everything in the world seems to hate you.
I woke up to rain and grey and stomch pains which is always the best way to begin the day! I got to college and found out that my English A Level exam is on the Friday of Glastonbury. I cried a lot.
Glastonbury is a huge part of who I am,

 I've been going since I was very little and it so upsetting to think that I'll miss any of it. Especially as it isn't going to be on next year due to the Olympics.
But fingers crossed I'll get a car-share up there on the friday :D
If you're interested in coming  to glasto this year (which you should be because it's amazing) the tickets go on resale in April:
http://www.glastonburyfestivals.co.uk/news/ticket-resale-update

I had an awful day and probably looked like this most of the time:


 (and thank you to Joe Burns who brought me a chocolate rose, wrote me a note and let me have an oreo and all my lovely PA group who always cheer me up)
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It's very exciting now that I've started going out in Brighton. I went to an 80's club night the other night which was extremely fun. Lots of cheesey music and crazy people. But, I think it was only a warm-up to all the fun times that are going to happen in the future. The possibilities are endless!
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Talking about the future, I've got my Central School Of Speech and Drama audition on wednesday and then a couple of days after that my Chitchester audition. It's all very nerve-wracking but also exciting! I still havent heard back from Exeter and the longer they leave it the more and more I want to get in there! AHHHH put me out of my misery please, it's the humane thing to do!
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Anyway! Thank you for reading, I've been on edge the entire time I've been writing in case my laptop fucked up again but all is good!

BREAKING NEWS:
Speak of the devil
I just got an email from UCAS....

CONDITIONAL FROM EXETER!
oh fuck, I have to get DD in Performing Arts and an A in English
Presssssureeeeee on!!!
(you, my faithful bloggers were the first to find out!)

Bye guys
xxx